Happy Wednesday! I wanted to write a little pregnancy update because I am so close to the end now and with a second pregnancy there is just so much less time so I am aware that my updates have been far from regular. Its just how it goes you put most of your energy into your first child and so you really aren’t as focused on the second in your tummy. Mine have been such different pregnancies; its actually incredible how different two pregnancies can be especially when the babies are the same sex. So let me run you through what’s been going on.
1.I am beyond excited to meet my little girl but whereas with Mila I just wanted the last weeks to fly by so that I could meet her, this time I am not (yet) quite ready. I have a nursery to complete (its getting there hopefully the wallpaper is going in early next week and most of the other pieces have arrived!), a bump shoot to do (didn’t do this with Mila so really wanted one this time around) but more than anything I just keep wanting to spend just a little bit of extra time with Mila. I said to my husband last night “I know that everyone tells you that a sibling is the best gift you can give your child but do they just say that because they have more than one child and what else can you say?” I keep feeling like I am taking something away from Mila and I am filled with sadness at the thought of coming home with our second baby and seeing how heartbroken she might be. I am sure she actually won’t be – she is such a wonderful little girl and so happy, loving and kind. But I think about every scenario. My husband is an only child but turned round to me and said “well how do you feel about your brother?” I have a brother who is 2 years older and he is one of the best things that ever happened to me – I am so so grateful to have a sibling and to have had someone I was so close to and still am many years later. So I guess I answered my own question. But even though I know it might be even better, I also know it will be different and I just keep wanting to give Mila just one more day of just us. Saying all of this though I know I will be fine whenever she does decide to make an appearance – you just get on with it don’t you and nothing actually needs to be ready (nursery included!)
2.I know I will miss my bump. I have spent the majority of the past two years pregnant. I found out I was pregnant with Mila in October 2015 and here we are and its November 2017 and I am about to have my second. I love pregnancy. I love the feeling of growing a human and the anticipation and excitement of meeting her. And I love dressing my bump. I honestly don’t know if I will know how to dress my non-pregnant body – I am so used to having a bump! Of COURSE its better having the baby in your arms but I am sure many of you can relate when I say I will miss it. Might just have to go for number three next summer haha…
3.My first pregnancy was a textbook pregnancy it was SO easy. I felt great throughout, worked out all the way up until a few weeks before and of course I got lots of rest too. This pregnancy has been much harder. I still have morning/all day sickness at 36 weeks (it really depends on the day to be honest) and I cant remember the last time I truly enjoyed a meal because I have to eat really plain food all the time to try and avoid being sick. I haven’t seen the inside of my gym since the first trimester and I feel like I haven’t slept in about a year. I have had so many random events occur throughout this pregnancy which I don’t really focus on because I am always about the positives. But just to keep you up to date, I had food poisoning a few weeks ago and ended up in hospital because I was throwing up every 3 minutes and got a crazy fever, I had to have an ECG scan last month as I got a chest pain and my doctor thought I might have a pulmonary embolism and back in July at 20 weeks I thought I was going to loose my baby because I had a couple of bleeds and having not had that before I thought I was having a very late miscarriage. Yet somehow despite all this I have enjoyed this pregnancy a lot more. Maybe because of it actually. I loved being pregnant the first time around but I have REALLY loved it this time because I also know this time how much of a blessing it really is. Its not always an easy path for everyone and so I would do this a thousand times over with no complaints because it truly is a miracle.
4.I feel more confused this time around about certain decisions. Honestly ignorance is bliss. Stem cells. Blood banking. Placenta storage. Sleepyheads vs cocoona. I didn’t even think about some of these things with Mila. It really doesn’t matter at the end of the day all that matters is that you and your baby are healthy. But I am just so much more aware of everything this time.
5.My baby is engaged. I can actually feel how low the head is and sometimes when I walk it literally feels like she might make an appearance at any time! So lets wait and see. My doctor thinks she might be early. One of my followers has predicted November the 15th. But then she could go overdue. My hospital bag is packed and ready to go and I am just trying to enjoy these last moments with bump number 2.
6.The nursery as mentioned is getting there! I hope to be able to shoot it all before giving birth but if she arrives early then it will be shortly thereafter. It took me a while to pick the wallpaper but now I finally have and its perfect.
7.And finally. I THINK we have a name. And it was one that was suggested by one of you. So thank you all for your feedback – it really is amazing to have this big community of mummies.
Hope you have all enjoyed my pregnancy looks and don’t worry I am not quite done yet – I will be posting looks until I literally do pop. I have loved dressing the bump and hope that I have helped show that you can be just as glamorous when pregnant! Whether you show the bump or hide the bump it really doesn’t matter but you don’t have to feel like you have to suddenly loose your identity. Quite the contrary for me I have never felt so confident as I do when pregnant.
And finally, I know I know I have been promising styling videos and I WILL do these – I just have so much going on with the nursery and Mila was basically sick for a month (the flu, hand foot and mouth then conjunctivitis poor thing!) and I am naturally slowing down as I get increasingly tired so just bear with me. Hopefully after giving birth I will suddenly have a burst of energy and be super productive like I found I was with Mila but lets see. Most of all I really just can’t wait for those newborn cuddles xx